还不错

很久没上来更新了

再没来的这段日子里发生了很多事

1我给carmen甩了，真是人生中的第一次

我从来都没给人甩过但这次我给她甩了

真是第一次。haiz。。

给他甩的原因是他觉得我不够爱她。。。。

可能我当时在追求别的女生忽略了她。。。

真的对不起。。。

camen...i tell u the true..

i never think tat u r my toy...

y u will think the negative?

b4 i chase u i ady promise u i will give u happiness...

but at the last i fell tat lithing just is my coffee

sorry for hurt u....

sorry

i ady together with lithing 3 week le...

start we r very happy n will feel tat very happy....

but now we always argue...

wat is the problem??

i really want to know....

thing sorry ya....

i know tat u very worry about me...

but i know how to takecare myself de....

i know tat u still cant forgive me tat wat i tell u tat day

but there r wat i think ...

dont angry le....

i also want sorry for this few day scold u...

really very very sorry....

i hope tat u will forgive me....

i ady know wat i do wrong le...

sorry

i promise u dint have the second time le....really ...

b...i promiss me u...i will give u feel tat u r the most happiness girl in the world....

leng lui...u r the most leng lui in my heart n inmy world...

i also promise u i wont chase another girl le...

reallly wont...

couse u r my only 1

not only now...

is for our future also...

heheheh

b4 tat i dont dare to say mixiu mixiu to u...

i als dont know y!!!

but know i will automatic to say mi xiu mixiu to u

couse i feel tat i really really very very love u

thing......i love u muacksssssss

......

最近我对他的爱没以前那么深了！！！

为什么？？

我喜新厌旧？？

不是！！

它不适合我？？

不是！！！

很烦啊！！

没关系拉。。。反正我都还有一个。。。

哈哈哈哈

有时觉得自己很够力，

但我就是不能转一

到底是为什么？？

多几天，我就要更她去云顶了

希望那时的我，可以更了解他。。。

今天住了房间来睡，

但就是不能入眠。。。

累了。。。。

但就是不能睡

糟糕。。。。

camen，他说他喜欢我

我们在一起了

但。。。

烦就对了。。。。

haiz,

wat can i do??

wat are my heart think??

who r me most miss??

camen??lithing??

i also dont know is who!!!

sometime i think i m not a good ppl

i should not accept them as my gf...

but...

when they chase me...

i will give them chance...

but whem i accept them

i will know tat they r not my lover...

y will be like tat??

is tat my wrong??

i hate myself...

but sometime i will think tat i was a good ppl

y i will think like tat??

couse always got many ppl chase me mah...

hahahaha

wat i promise u all,

is not i cant do it...

is u all want me promise u de

i never think tat i will promise u all wat...

now i just think to go genting...

GENTING

wait me ...

i m coming on this tuesday....

hahahaha

to all my bb

i promise your all

at genting...

i will give u all have a nice trip...

i love u

all

hahahaha..............

dont know...

ady long time dint write blog le!!!

this few day 9 i very very buzy talk with my gf...

hahaha

she veryvery very cute..

i ;like to hear her sound..

really very cute n beautifull

bb i love u..

now i still dont know wat u want...

but

give me some time to know more about u...

i love u

so i will try my best to do the most better...

wat i promise u ..

i will do it

hahaha

bb u really r my last...

i wont change it again

i love u.....

烦

i dont know y i always want talk about her!!

itizit i still can forget her??

i dont i really dont know!!

i want to know wat is she still thinking!!

i really dont know...

i very confuse...

this 2daY i always go out with vivian...

but i still dint get the fell tat i want...

vivian sorry...

who can tell me is tati still cant forget carrie is a good thing??

i dont think so..

wat is the good idea for me to forget u??

i still want use how much time to forget u??

or untill tatday i die i also can for get u??

i ady very very tired for this love....

sorry for the ppl tat always love me

sorry u all....

伪装`的过日子

最近都没写blog...

不是懒惰写，而是没那种心情写。。

from sunday untill now i never happy...

y i so un happy???

because carrie??

because vivian??

because jimmy??

y my heart always want think nonsen??

y?????

form sunday untill now....

didnt have ppl know tat i sad...

i dont want let ppl know wat i think

伪装的过日子真的好辛苦，

脑里时常出现过去的画面。。。

那些画面对我来说还有意义吗？？

星期日，带了我朋友去吃东西后，

我告诉他我不舒服。所以要早回，其实我不是病

而是突然心很不舒服

为什么会这样？？

我也不知道，

星期一，我们去唱k，

那时就趁机大大声地喊出来。。。

唱到最后，我累了

在朋友回自己又回到家后，就很快的入睡了。。。。

半夜醒来，不知道为什么自己哭了，

我最近真的真的很压力。。。

谁会理解我的心情？？

我不想再装了，，

我真的很辛苦！！

我可以选折不去想吗？？

我可以吗？？

不。。。我不可以。。。

我不可以在逃避了，，

但。。。

how should i settle??

when i work,can i forget everything??

can??

no....

i know tat how i buzy i also can forget all the thing...

i really dont want think le

i just want do back myself...

i want tell my mum tat ..now i m not suitable buy house....

but how can i tell my mum all this thing??

i dont want my mum unhappy...

wat should i do??

all ppl pls la...

give me sometime to think..

wat shold i do n give me think tat wat i do is tat right!!!

i think i should dissappear for a few week...

i ady tired for this life...

i got many idea for settle this all thing...

but all the idea with give some ppl sad....

haiz,,,,

next week i will not contact with u all....

pls let me alone...

give me think ...

i ady waste many time now i should work hard le...

vivian...i know u very miss me.

i know tat i dint reply your msg is my wrong but....

now i still cant accept u .

sorry

carrie,pls dont sms me again ....

i ady tell myself i should forget u de...

i know i will forget u de...

but i need a long long time...

sorry

jimmy your turn....

you ady give me many many trouble...

pls la give me freedom

i wont together with u le

tat time is u want go outstation de

now i cant accept u le

sorry

i so tired for this 3 ppl le

jimmy ,vivian ,carrie

sorry

无聊

已经一个多星期没有写blog了。。。。

都忘了上星期发生什么事了。。

只知道上星期很很很无聊

:D

不知道什么时候开始，心已经不在为你痛

泪也不会再为你而流，不会为你而哭泣

不知道什么时候开始，我已经不在对着电话等你的信息

不再傻傻的握着电话，只为了等你一封的信息

不知道什么时候开始，我已经不想去知道你的情况了

我也不再去打听你的消息了

都结束了，最后的结局谁都可以想到的

情人最后还设会变成陌生人，那个曾经抱过的陌生人，

我们不在有任何关系，因为分手后绝对当不成朋友

为什么？？？因为这世界就是那么的现实

我学会了没有你的日子，

我终于可以脱离痛苦，

jimmy thanks for u, this few day i feel very happy,i ady can forget carrie

i wont cry again

cousr i know tat now u n vivian is beside me

jimmy really very thankss for u

a nice day

最近的心情好了很多，我终于可以放下他了~~~~

算是放下吗？？

我偶尔还是会想知道他现在的情况，

不过怕知道了会心痛。。。

听朋友说有人在追他，

我应该开心吗？？

老实说我真的没有那么伟大咯，

不过还是要放下拉。。。

我还在学习放下他，，，

我已经很很很努力了，

i just want forget 1 ppl ,

y so hard??

can i do it???

hope i can!!!

vivian i so dissappointed with u,

do u know y i dont want sms u???

y u want do me angry u??

i ady say ,i love u but u still dont want believe me....

i so dissapointed to u...

pls,dont call me go find u ,,,i dont want see u again,,,

pls dissappear,.......

i hate u ....

but if i hate u,my heart will pain,sad la....

vivian today u sms me say tat u cant sleep well n u need to exam ...

i reply your msg,i hope u can do well in your exam ...

u tell me u will do the best if i sms u ,n love u more thn b4

i ady promise u.,

dont let me dissapointed again...

ok???

this few day jimmy sms me again ,he ady back to as

he say he wont go outstation again...

he say he miss me

he want me to accept him,i ady think for 2 night!!!untill today morning i wake up,

i saw he sms me again,

he ask me wat is my ans...

jimmy :i though i ady forget u,but y u alway 出现when i got problem??

u do me hate ~~~

i ady tell u my ans,i hope tat the thing tat b4 we together u want do again....

now i together with u,but i still cant have the feeling like b4 ,

y??

i know u very care wat i tell u yesterday 9,

but u never tell me tat wat had i yesterday say to u de u very mind...

u just say u will accept wat i had tell u,

u say u will changes your act,

but i still cant believe u,

jimmy i ady heart me b4 ,so i cant believe,

many ppl say tat u ady change,buti still cant believe....

ah mu,ah sheng n the idiot yik feng also say tat u ady change,

want me try give u a change try together with u...

now i ady do it....

i hope u really changes your act...

hope i will see tat wat u ady changes...

wait for your new act......

很辛苦！！！

今天很很很不开心，我看到她那样我真的真的很不开心，

是我错当初我们不该在一起，

放就是放了，

一切都结束了，

我整个人好累好累，我好想忘记你，

我真的真很辛苦，

我不能再撑了，

我要倒了

心情很烂

没心情写。。。。

心情麻麻地

今天醒来电话的信息多得不得了

原来是他。。。。

我原本已经放下他了，那知道

他又信息来说些话

让我听了差点心软，好像快快摆脱他咯，

我该怎么做？？

为什么你得到的时候你终是不好好珍惜？？

等到失去后才来哭，才来后悔？？？

carrie i so dissapointed with u ,

pls dont kacau me anymore,

now we ady is friend,not couple

pls dissapear,pls pls pls

apple ady call her dad bankin money for her liao...

later we can eat ho liao le...

hehehe

about 11 pm we ady go 'abc'restaurent eat ho liao

still got 1 thing carrie ady remove me in her facebook,

i got abit sad lo

y ???

y we cant be friend??

y must be couple??

yyy y y y y y y y ??

i really want know y!!!!

who can give me know the ans!!

vivian pls give me some time,

now i still can accept u kuk,

pls give me sometime,dont angry anymore...

vivian i love u...

心超烂的

昨晚真的有点不开心，

我跟他终于分开了，

刚开始我以为自己会很难过哪知道，我却没有像以前的伤心，

反而我还糟蹋了他很多，

他肯定很不开心，原本还以为他会来png的，我想带他去玩了才跟他分得，

哪知道前一晚，我就糟蹋他了，

想回那些糟蹋他的话，自己想了都会笑，

哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈

我终于成功离开他了

我成功可以没有她了。。。

哈哈哈哈哈哈哈

我做到了。。。。。

昨晚没东西吃刚好又没钱，我那么大还是第一次那么惨，

可怜咯，

但最后还是想办法炒饭了，吃饱不久我们就睡了

dont know how to say...

yesterday i very tired so dint come to my blog,

yesterday morning i sms for her,i told her tat i need 1 year time for concentred in my work,

thn she ask me izit i want broke with her,i dont know wat should i say

i scard tat she will very sad..she still sms me,

call me pls dont broke,she say tat she very sad,

i reply to she i wont broke with her,couse i really very love her

the second thing is vivian,she angry me couse i didnt sms her,

i want tell her tat i still not yet broke with carrie,

pls give me sometime,i swear i will broke with her as fast as i can,

pls dont angry me ,vivian now in my heart de is u ady,not carrie again

believe me i will love u forever,couse now i need 1 ppl tat i love her more thn u love me de

tat ppl is u,not carrie

vivian i love u

another thing is yesterday i dont know y i will suddenly gastric,

my whole body include my hand n leg also dint have energy,

my friend see it thn she take the porridge for me eat,

pui~~

the porridge really like a shit ,ho cai i have tau ju...

hahaha

tat is my lovely...

after eat we watch "jian yu fong yun "its really nice

after the movie,thn we sleep le....

the end~~~

伤心

今天醒来拿起手机

发现手机有很多信息其中两封是他信息来

第一封，她告诉我她的成绩很差

第二封她说她要跟我分。。。。

看后我的眼泪马上飚了出来

我信息问她分手的原因，

他回了我，她说她花太多时间在我身上了

我们已经好久都没有见面了，难道还是我的错？？

她还告诉我她不想读了。。。

过后我还是静静的想了。。。我觉得我是时候放开她了，

也许我们分开了对大家也好。。。

我爱她太深了。。

我真的不知道要怎样才能放下他

vivian可以让我忘记她吗？？

我会不会太过分？？

我不是故意要用vivian来忘记她

而是我真的真的放不下她。。。

怎么办？？

虽然我们始终都没有分到。。

但我心里还是很很很难过。。

因为我知道我们的感情不会再像以前了，

刚才一觉醒来，看了那个人的blog让我领悟了很多。。

我决定放下她。。

我不想再提心吊胆的。。。

担心他不知道几时会在向我提分。。

我相信我一定能忘了他。。。

叶怡涵，你一定能做到的。。。