伪装`的过日子

最近都没写blog...

不是懒惰写，而是没那种心情写。。

from sunday untill now i never happy...

y i so un happy???

because carrie??

because vivian??

because jimmy??

y my heart always want think nonsen??

y?????

form sunday untill now....

didnt have ppl know tat i sad...

i dont want let ppl know wat i think

伪装的过日子真的好辛苦，

脑里时常出现过去的画面。。。

那些画面对我来说还有意义吗？？

星期日，带了我朋友去吃东西后，

我告诉他我不舒服。所以要早回，其实我不是病

而是突然心很不舒服

为什么会这样？？

我也不知道，

星期一，我们去唱k，

那时就趁机大大声地喊出来。。。

唱到最后，我累了

在朋友回自己又回到家后，就很快的入睡了。。。。

半夜醒来，不知道为什么自己哭了，

我最近真的真的很压力。。。

谁会理解我的心情？？

我不想再装了，，

我真的很辛苦！！

我可以选折不去想吗？？

我可以吗？？

不。。。我不可以。。。

我不可以在逃避了，，

但。。。

how should i settle??

when i work,can i forget everything??

can??

no....

i know tat how i buzy i also can forget all the thing...

i really dont want think le

i just want do back myself...

i want tell my mum tat ..now i m not suitable buy house....

but how can i tell my mum all this thing??

i dont want my mum unhappy...

wat should i do??

all ppl pls la...

give me sometime to think..

wat shold i do n give me think tat wat i do is tat right!!!

i think i should dissappear for a few week...

i ady tired for this life...

i got many idea for settle this all thing...

but all the idea with give some ppl sad....

haiz,,,,

next week i will not contact with u all....

pls let me alone...

give me think ...

i ady waste many time now i should work hard le...

vivian...i know u very miss me.

i know tat i dint reply your msg is my wrong but....

now i still cant accept u .

sorry

carrie,pls dont sms me again ....

i ady tell myself i should forget u de...

i know i will forget u de...

but i need a long long time...

sorry

jimmy your turn....

you ady give me many many trouble...

pls la give me freedom

i wont together with u le

tat time is u want go outstation de

now i cant accept u le

sorry

i so tired for this 3 ppl le

jimmy ,vivian ,carrie

sorry